I was reminded yesterday that I don’t have any friends here at work. Casual conversation was used against me and I got talked to. I was once again reminded that I need to keep my trap closed because they are all out to get me. I should have seen this coming.

One thing I’ve learned from riding across America. People are a lot nicer the further east you go.

It’s time. I have to just accept that I can no longer write code. It has been getting harder and harder to focus. I haven’t been able to get into the zone in years. I just don’t have the passion for it anymore. Not only that. I just can’t think anymore. My brain has just stopped working right.

I’ve never made any money programming. I’ve never built anything good. There was no mark made on the world. I knew that I wasn’t the best at it. I had my niche. I did OK. I should have ended it years ago.

I’m sitting here completely broke. I’m homeless. I don’t even have a car. I barely have a job. I’m pretty much alone. The last two years I only made $20k. I don’t even have anything worth anything to sell. So I’m going to work at the pet hotel making just enough money to get by.

I’m probably going to have to delay my trip back to Florida. I just don’t have the money to fix up my RV and get there. My bike needs a bunch of work also. It’s barely running. This winter is going to really suck if I can’t roll out. I’m still going to try. I think I can make a few $k before it gets really cold. If I can find a job on the other side then I probably will make it.

I’m sure there will be lots of jobs in FL if I can get there. I just need about $5k to leave here. If I can sell my Triumph then I’ll probably have it made. But, I’ll need at least $10k for it.

Well. Here’s to my new career. Being a bum. Hope I’ll be a lucky bum.

All my life I played it safe. I didn’t rock the boat. I didn’t push myself. I did everything I was told. I didn’t take any chances. I made sure I did the “right” choices in life. I didn’t drink, smoke, or even cuss. I never traveled. I never partied. I didn’t stay out all night. I never pushed the envelope.

All that got me was divorced, homeless, and broke.

I’m bitter. I resent my life’s choices. I dwell in the past. I wish I did more. I wish I pissed people off. I wish I broke some bones. I wish I took off across the country when I was a kid. I wish I said no a lot more than I did. I wish I lied, cheated, and stole. I should have had fun and lost it all instead of losing it all and having no fun doing it.

Now that I’m at mid life. With nothing to my name. I’m trying to figure out what it means to really live. I still haven’t figured it out yet, but I’m trying. I jumped on my motorcycle and rode across the country looking for it. I’m drove a POS bus back looking for it. I’m struggling to find it. Drinking. Doing drugs. All the things I should have done as a kid. Just trying to find what life means.

I can’t really say I have any real true friends. I have great friends don’t get me wrong. I would do pretty much anything for them. The truth is that nobody really knows who I am. I’m a shape shifter. I never let anyone really know who I am completely. Nobody on this planet really knows who I am. I don’t even know who I really am.

I don’t think anything is going to change for me. I’ve been doing it for way too long. I don’t know any other way. But, I vow that I’m going to start saying no more often. I’m going to start doing the things I want to do. I’m going to quit letting people push me around. I’m going to stop replicating what I see in other people. I’m going to stop trying to be friends with everyone I meet. I’m just going to let it happen how it happens.

I have the thickest wall around me. It’s time for me to tear it down. It’s time to reveal myself to the world. It’s time to stop being scared. I just need to remember that I have to say no to people that just want to use me.

Let bring this little site back from the dead.

It’s time to reactivate old ways and get back to my roots. I need to quit messing around and get back to what was working for me back in the day. For the last ten years I’ve had it pretty rough. At some point I changed my perspective. Went down the wrong path. Didn’t listen to my friends. Took advise from the wrong people.

And now I’m homeless, pennyless, and depressed.

Time to turn this train around.

Susan and I are opening up a new pet daycare and boarding business in Carson City.

We hope to be open by February 2018!

I’ve put up a temp web site to get marketing started.

https://www.booboosbuddies.com/

Checked it out. It’s just a quick WordPress site, so don’t be too critical about it. Really just a placeholder while I build out the real site with a lot more functionality.

I’ve been looking for something new to build my current apps in. I used Angular JS for a while and loved it but hated the newer versions. My latest project I’ve been doing my work in plain JavaScript and it’s getting pretty bad. I need a framework to clean things up.

While I was looking at some stuff I came across Vuetify. It’s a Material Design framework for Vue JS. Then I started looking into Vue JS.

Vue is like the old Angular JS project. Easy to integrate, simple to use, and has a lot of helpers with it.

So I’m playing with this now trying to figure it out and see where it goes. I have at least three projects that will benefit from it.

Well. Glasses.

I finally got tired of having blurry vision. Went down to the local eye doctor and got my exam. My eyes aren’t too bad. Picked up some glasses just to make things easier to see.

My glasses work pretty well. Everything is so sharp now. Before I wasn’t able to read text on the TV from across the room but now I am. Everything pretty much is easier to see. The biggest thing is that I’m not squinting anymore.

Well, lets see how this goes for a while.

Picked up a new Google phone. The Pixel XL. This is so far the best phone I’ve ever had. Super quick, very nice to hold, big enough to read on, and pure Android.

There are a ton of new features including the always-on screen that shows the time and some notifications. I like being able to just glance over and see the time on the phone without having to turn it on.

The feel is very nice. Much better than the other phone. It has texture to it so it stays in your hand unlike the previous model.

I think I’ll be happy with this phone for quite some time. I’m not looking to upgrade for a while. With the price of this phone, I don’t want to.

Just rode a 1000 miles for the weekend. It was pretty great trip. We had a lot of fun.

Finally broke down for the last time and purchased my first brand new bike.

After the break down in the middle of the desert on my chopper I realized that I do actually need two bikes. This way I can have one that runs at all times while the other is being worked on. But I stepped it up a bit more. I purchased a brand spanking new bike that isn’t going to break down and will be my trusty go to ride.

I still need to fix my chopper but it can wait in the garage for a while. I’m not in a hurry now.

So now I need to order the parts for the chopper when I have time. New battery, air filter screen, rear tire, and maybe do some more customization to the bike.